Is this really what is happening?

I am experiencing a strange feeling right now. Like I've been sad and happy, and a whole mix of emotions, but this one is just like, getting to this moment of pure bewilderment. Like, I am looking at the finances, trying to sort out in my mind how everything should go, taking into account how things are changing, and then I am just like - we are really getting a divorce, how...weird.

This is not the path I thought my life would take, but it is where it is going anyway, and it is okay, just not what I expected. Like I am used to the sad face that people get when they find out newly, and that look of concern. I appreciate it, but for the most part do not need it when I am actually in the company of others. It is when I am alone that I feel more need of it. And then just like, I am getting used to things.

But it is still weird. This is what is happening? Really? I just kinda catch my breath and feel like, this is just weird. This is not how love is supposed to go. But not really in a sad way, just in a like, weird way. I mean, yes it's sad, but that's just not what I feel about it right now.

I guess I shrug and move on to the next step, and accept that it's weird, but it's happening. But life can be quite strange sometimes. I generally think that is a good thing. I think good things will come from this, just because of the atonement I think good things can come from everything, but I do not really think it is a good thing. So strange and bad.

Odd.