Moving by Standing Still

I was at the pool yesterday for my niece's birthday, and I was talking with my mom while we were in a mini-whirlpool type thing. I just started standing there, while the current wanted to pull me along around the pool, and it took a bit of effort just to stay where I was. It reminded me of something one of Carolyn's harp teachers had said, that it is when you feel like you are going nowhere with your practicing that you are really making the most progress.

I've been slightly mulling these different ideas in my head, and the realization that sometimes we are making the most progress by standing still, because even though we can't see ourselves moving forward, we are keeping ourselves from moving backward, and we are getting stronger and more ready to move forward when the current is not pushing us so hard. We are gaining strength.

On a completely unrelated note, but since I have this compose mode up and feel like writing, I have figured out that I want to be more ambitious at work. I was talking to my friend at work, Raman, the other day, about how my boss seems like he has no idea what he wants to do with me, if he wants me to be a supervisor next summer or what. Apparently he and a couple others had talked to him about how I should say something to my boss about it. It is not really something I feel comfortable doing, but I am considering it. But I first started to consider what I would really like to do there. And I started to figure out that what I want to do is a little bit of everything. I want to supervise, I want to do home owner verification, I want to take calls, I want to sort out techinical problems, I want to listen to QC calls, I want to help on the manifest, I want to interface with the reps, I want to work on building Vision to be a better place to work for, a better place to sell for. And that is just some things, really I don't know everything I want to do. I have pretty much perfected the small part of the process I do, and honed it down to its most efficient method, and so I want to take more on, and not just be there to robotically do my job and pick up a paycheck. I want to do it not because I really care about Vision all that much, but because I want to be that kind of employee to a company, and that kind of person in life.

So I am still trying to figure out exactly what to ask for, and I have already started just doing more of my own will, and so when I figure out what I need my boss to give me responsibility or training over to do, then I may talk to him.

I'm trying to make an effort right now to really listen to that advice others give to me, and not just gloss over it and do whatever I think is best without even considering what someone else says. And I'm glad I listened to Raman, because even though I may not end up doing exactly what he advised me to do, by considering it, I have figured out more what would make me happier with my job.