Forsake Waiting for Pictures

So I have just been too lazy to find my cord and upload pictures, so I have decided that it is not worth waiting.

Things should be pretty exciting around here, should be, but are not because I have been sick, and I am just now recovering. I am supposed to be preparing my house and my life for teaching English classes in my home. I am really excited about it, and looking forward to it, but my body has been very uncooperative. I was finally getting over my post-stress break, ready to put full steam ahead when I got sick, so I guess I'll just push preparations back a week. Again.

Being sick has given me the added advantage of watching two seasons of the Pretender in three days, maybe four, though. It is a great show. I wish there were more seasons, more intrigue, etc. Now my goal is to lend it out to everybody and get them hooked, so then there will be extended support for the third Pretender movie. (The first two don't come out on DVD for a month! What a saddness).

In other news, I think I am beginning to understand why Janardan has such an odd sleep schedule. Having nothing in particular that I need to do each day at any certain time has skewed my schedule a bit as well. It is odd. There is nothing to keep you from staying up late when you have nothing to get up for in the morning. And it's harder to motivate yourself to get things back on schedule as well. Before I got married, I felt that being sealed would help me understand him in ways that I couldn't, not being sealed. I have seen that happen time and time again. Yet there is still so much more progress to be made.

It is interesting how what you surround yourself influences your view on the world. I've been watching the Pretender, which has had a few episodes with purposeful illness-causing toward death and such things, and then there is Janardan being sick. My first thought when I was sick was that someone had done this to me, but then supposed that no one would really have a reason, so that was unlikely. My second fear is that I will never get better. I have a headache, and I've had it for a few days. What will happen if it never goes away? I suppose I need more exposure to healthy people, so that I can mentally believe in my health, and maintain the strength I need to take care of Janardan.

Being a wife is a full-time job.